takemewithyou

2011-01-07T18:10:00.001+08:00

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The beginning 19dec2010

2010-12-20T00:51:00.000+08:00

Time check:12.40am and i'm still awake on the hosp bed.apparently,i've spent my entire waiting time in kkh walking..only 2cm dilated when the nurse checked me at about 4pm.i had severe diarrea at 11am and continued till 3pm.That was when i decided that hospital was the only way to go.
The contractions was half an hour to 45 mins apart at first.then it progressed to 20mins.
I tell you,it's super uncomfortable having my cervix checked.eeyucks!it felt really painful and urm,disgusting to me..haha..but for aleesya,i'm willing to go thru all this..
I was admitted and baby's heartbeat is doing well..husband had to leave at 9pm as the visiting hours are over(urm well,he stayed till 10pm)..hee..
Hearing the sound of babies crying makes me feel excited and nervous at the same time..i can't wait to get my hands on my baby girl..

Pray the best for me!hopefully i'm atleast 4cm dilated tmr!amin!

turning 20 soon..

2010-10-13T20:41:00.000+08:00

Glad i'll be turning 20 years old soon..this year means a lot to me.i got married.i got pregnant with a baby girl..my first year being a wife and mother soon.i'm proud of myself for achieving such things when i'm barely turning .i'm truly happy with my marriage life and i hope that baby aleesya will bring much more meaning to our life.looking forward to oct and dec .insyallah..

When baby aleesya..

2010-10-07T18:59:00.000+08:00

When she kicks hard early in the morning,means she's hungry and wants mummy to eat her favourite:bread with kaya and margarine + milo.

When the kicks get harder towards midday,means she's ready to indulge lunch and wants mummy to take a break.

When mummy's tummy gets superbly hard at times,means she wants to pee..(which happens every 2 hours!)

When aleesya hates something that mummy eats,she's tumble and turn and force mummy to vomit it out..(which mummy hates the most).

When baby aleesya's sick,she'll toss and turn,tumble and move around till mummy's tummy hurt and force her to take MC.(naughty girl!)

When daddy touch mummy's belly,baby aleesya gets so eager and 'mentel' that she'll keep moving throughout the night..making mummy sleepless..

But when she's happy,she'll dance around inside to tell mummy that she can't wait to come out!

When she kicks

80 days more.

2010-10-05T18:47:00.000+08:00

80 days more approximately to my due date.it's getting nearer and neArer as days goes by..i'm excited plus nervous!i can't wait to get my hands on her little toes and teeny weeny fingers..oh gosh!how cute can those cheeks be!!husband's getting even more impatient..he often talk to baby every night..i love my moments during pregnancy although the rough part were there..insyAllah baby aleesya will make it through to full term..mummy love u syg!

At last!

2010-10-04T17:41:00.000+08:00

Atlast! I'm finally posting again..couldn't find the right time to post about baby aleesya's(what we have decided to name her for now) development..
Alhamdulilah,i'm 28weeks and 3days pregnant.Just visited my gynae this morning at Kkh with husband.it was his first time seeing the ultrasound so he got very jakun when we entered the room.the gynae performed the ultrasound and i just lay there gagging looking at how wonderful my baby has grown!husband couldn't stop asking me 'what was that?' and 'that?'...hehe..baby surprised me by not weighing so much despite me gorging myself!hahah....and yes,ive gained more than 10kgs and it's so not good!well,seeing baby growing so well makes me feel at ease..the excess 'ehem' can be lost after birth!hopefully....

my baby's growing!

2010-06-03T07:00:00.000+08:00

hey all!i just went for a 10 week scan of my baby yesterday!i was so anxious to see it!the baby was so active that even the nurse just kept smiling throughout...mcm the mummy lah..!

going for another scan in 10 weeks time!!

it's hard to predict..

2010-05-27T21:32:00.001+08:00

hello!as u all know,i'm currently fattening myself up with lots of good food..everyone's been pampering me with food..be it at or at work..hehe..and the best thing about being pregnant is when you don't have to help out with anything and yet you get everything you asked for!hehe...

my husband's being good so far..he's been giving me endless attention..and i see him all the time..even during my lunch..hehe..he always gets worried when i'm w/o food..so good leh..i have only 8 months to seek all these never-will-get-ever attention..!

my baby's been super irritating..hates fish,hates milk,super allergic to teh tarik..but loving spicy food..i can even eat mee soto with tons of chili w/o going to the toilet!how irritating can it be?

anyway,going for my very first scan next week..hope the baby's doing fine..hehe..

Will it be a boy?or a girl??or both??

I miss home

2010-05-11T20:18:00.000+08:00

yesterday was exactly a month i've been married. To someone that i truly love. I thank Allah for giving us a blessed gift: my little baby. it has been growing inside of me eversince.

people keep on saying that being married changes everything. Yes,it does. My lifestyle, my character..Everything. I belonged to a whole new family. But somehow,i'm missing home.So much.

i miss my mum's nag, quarrels with my sis, my dad's know-it-all character. My brother's irritating-ness. I miss the warmth of my family that i can't get anywhere else.

don't be mistaken,i do get the warmth of my in laws here. but it's just not the same as my own family.

it hurts when you love someone so much but they're far away from you.

I love you family.So much.

With lots of misses,kisses and tears,
someone who misses you people endlessly.

God's Gift

2010-04-30T23:37:00.000+08:00

Oh hello!

My mummy hasn't been updating cause she's always feeling sickly.She keeps vomiting everyday regardless of whatever she eats.Mummy has been feeling unwell ever since she found out that i had been created!Daddy has been feeling happy too.Both are too elated to wait for my arrival(which is not so soon..)

The doctor told mummy that I am coming to 7 weeks old!.Don't be mistaken!Scientifically,you have to count it from your last day of mensus.When i was exactly created,only Allah knows.In short,i am only coming to 3 weeks developed.

I hope mummy will feel good for the next 2 months or so.She has to hold on.I promise not to make her sickly in my later part of growth!

Mummy,jia you!

Wedding Pics taken by family,relative and friends

2010-04-17T19:07:00.000+08:00

MARRIED!

2010-04-16T07:49:00.000+08:00

atlast!i'm married!To the man that i uber love!hehe..
Honestly,married life isn't as easy as i thought it would be.I have to carry heavier responsibilities on my shoulder. I have 2 families right now and i need to find the time to share the love.No doubt that it's difficult at first,but i think i'm getting the hang of it.

Hubby's not a choosy person.He eats what's given and he wears what i iron.He's simple and anything goes kind of person.My MIL and PIL are also those chill kind of parents in laws.So happy to lead this kind of life.

And YES,right now i'm loving cats!all three of them.Ok,Donut least.I think he hates me.HAha.

A few pics for you people!

Gee's Magical Touch

2010-04-13T09:00:00.000+08:00

Hello!as you all know,today is my 3rd day of being a wife.Tell you something,it feels good!haha..Thanks to all that gave support to us throughout the 6months preparations.In view of this,i've decided to open up a business for my mum.She did all the wedding gifts decoration for me and i think it's splendid!I don't have the pics with me right now so,just email me if you have any inquiries!

nurainnr@gmail.com

2010-04-10T08:04:00.000+08:00

In 3 and a half hour's time,i'm going to be someone's wife.Someone whom i've loved all my life.Someone whom i want to spend the rest of my life with.

It's kind of scary when you think about it.It's as if you're breaking free from one cage and entering into another.No,i'm not saying getting married is an escape route,but it kind of give you that jitters that you will feel forever.

Okay,i kinda like the henna on my hands right now.It's not too dark nor too light.Super love it la!But most of my cousins will go "eee!!"or ''yucks!"when they saw it!macam2 la ni budak2!

only 20 mins more to go before i take mandi pengantin and get ready to be drawn on.So people,gear up for the next few days!Wedding pics will be up!

2010-04-09T06:37:00.000+08:00

Happy 3rd Year Anniversary!!!

pre wedding preparations.Part 1/10.

2010-04-05T10:44:00.006+08:00

sneak peak of gifts for Hubby!

some stuffs we bought..

our messy marital bed.still cleaning up!

mirror at ikea that mummy insisted on buying for our room!

the rest will be on a later day!=)))

2010-04-03T11:57:00.001+08:00

SEVEN DAYS LEFT!
after this i promise you that i will post up all my wedding pics and update you!!

Miss those times.

2010-03-30T18:54:00.003+08:00

how fast time flies.And i'm getting hitched.It seems just yesterday that i was still a student.How much i miss school and classmates.

2010-03-30T15:24:00.003+08:00

The clock is ticking.

Only 10 more days to go.

I'm so sexcited for it!

Gfs coming on Friday night to teman me for the Henna
Party!

HubbyBaby's out for his Bachelor night unfortunately.
(better not come back with a hangover okay.)

Daiso shopping just now with mom.

Tomorrow to IKEA for more furniture shopping!

WOW!bestnyer!

I can't wait for 10 APPPPRRRIIILLLL!

2010-03-21T08:51:00.001+08:00

Only 2 weeks to be lawfully wedded.I'm so sexited!
Off to Hortpark with Baby today!wee!

2010-03-17T08:57:00.000+08:00

He made my day.But someone else have to ruined it.

Fuck off pls.

Pasir Ris Farms With Love.

2010-03-16T16:21:00.010+08:00

This stupid,blooody,feathery duck came whopping at me when i was feeding those tortoises and fishes in there!It came flying so fast to get it's share too!grr..And allow me to admit that,i did SHOUT out loud!haha..I hate this duck.It does anything to get to the food!even when i threw it super further away!(i make u a Peking Duck then u know).

Rooster.Wait,is it a hen?Or a Chicken?entahlah.Maybe none of the above also.Haha.There were lots of it la.Like 10.And trust me,the smell was amazing!eww.I could throw up smelling the coop.Urgh.Did feed them fish food and they ate it!haha..

I was fascinated by this cage as it's the only one with chicks!OMG!it's uber cute,small and fluffy!hehe..and oh,smelly too.=)

Koi's.What i love about Koi's is their colours and patterns.I love the gold ones.They looked so shiny and pretty!and BTW,those fish food by the side wasn't my cause!hehe

It's with this lovely dovey boy that i venture these places with.Love u lah!

The Newlyweds

2010-03-15T09:40:00.006+08:00

Congratulations!

Their wedding was at Bedok at 11am.Unfortunately,we couldn't attend the solemnization due to unforeseen circumstances.We reached there at 11.15am and they were taking photos and such.Ina was gorgeous!super gorgeous!hehe...

I could see HubbyBaby face like different gitu when he sees Shahrul during the wedding..It's your turn soon baby!hehe..

paranoia

2010-03-11T16:54:00.001+08:00

hey people!

okay,im done with the invitings..

only word in my mind.

NERVOUS.

okay,i think i should be.

2010-03-10T15:29:00.002+08:00

Way before i met HubbyBaby,I didn't have any confidence and trust in myself.Maybe because of my appearance.I felt so fat and urgh,ugly.

I hated myself so much that i overdosed so many times w/o my parents knowign of course.

Meeting HubbyBaby changed a lot of things in my life.I've begun to trust myself,have confidence and not pretending to be someone else.

I'm contented enought that he is willing to accept me for who i am.True enough,we have got a black past.But it doesn't matter to me anymore.

Empty promises don't work on me.It's all in the actions.

I truly love you Muhammad Iryandi Bin Ismail.Top to toe.Muaks.

2010-03-09T10:36:00.002+08:00

I've been busily spending my time compiling songs and googling on wedding flops and success.I'm being too overly paranoid about my big day.

There's not much left to do i guess.Only purchases and set ups to do.I was chatting on FB with Diana Seth yesterday aftnn and thanks to her i remembered abt my wedding shoes.Belom beli lagi!haiz.I'm so the cerewet.No wonder nobody wants to go shopping with me.HubbyBaby also.

So many more people to invite.So many more invitation cards to distribute.But so little time to do it!gosh.

okay,a little about my weekend with HubbyBaby.

As i rarely get to meet him due to his job and our 1hr journey apart,weekends is the only time i get to really tengok muker dier puas2 and loving2 with him.hehe.My parents are getting more naggy as they don't want us to spend too much time together..Tak manis sebab nak nikah kan..We had so many things in mind.Nak kite flying la,Pulau Ubin la,Cycling la..But we ended up going to Pet Farm.Jadila..haha..

Shahrul and Ina fetched us at P.ris and off we go for dinner at Simpang Bedok.I vividly remember what we order..Hmm..

french fries
cheese fries
nasi goreng ayam
lamb chop
kway teow goreng
kway teow kuah
ikan pari bakar
kerang
roti john

macam nak mampos makan.Padahal 4 orang je!Okay,kite bawak mak buyong kan.hehe..

Shahrul tot of gg karaoke but i got no mood.this bloody Makcik in latex legging was practically eyeing mybf.gatal nak mampos!serve org pat kedai kopi but she was wearing makeup as thick as a hostess!grr!kalao kao seduce orang lain,aku no hal..But not my baby okay..Should avoid Hawa restaurant!

So we went riding till midnight..

the rest,just me and Baby.hehe.

I miss us.

2010-03-05T09:59:00.001+08:00

Baby,i really miss us being normal like before.

I hate quarrels and i really hate crying.

I miss you.Really do.

2010-03-04T09:15:00.000+08:00

Each time i see you,i feel like i've known you forever.
ILY Baby Bushuk..!

You and no one else.

2010-03-01T14:51:00.003+08:00

Dear Sayang,

Many things has happened between us lately.I can sense that we're not as close as before.With all the tensions going on,i know that you're stressed out.So do I.But i hate to feel all this.I don't want out relationship to be in some kind of rocky state.It's a bad sign.

Syg,with all the hectic preparations going on,i'm feeling super nervous and worried.I hope that everything runs smoothly..I very much need your attention right now baby.Anyway,it's our life that we're about to live in.

Syg,i selalu doakan our happiness.I nak tgk u happy slalu.But u must promise me no nitty2 things between us ok?I hope to meet you soon bi.

Missed you so much my boy.

2010-02-25T10:19:00.002+08:00

Marriages Are Made In Heaven

by Neethu

This is not a made up story , it is the story of my from the age of 18 years ,to now,
In our culture , the parents always had arranged marriages for their children, but I was just a rebel in that case ,
I never listened to my parents , I always wanted what I want, and that’s how I learnt the hard way ,
I just finished school, and there goes my dad, asking people at social functions `to arrange a boy for me`

That used to irritate the hell out of me, so I just wanted to get out from that environment, so I started looking for my own choice,
And that’s when I got fooled, I worked for a Collections Agency , and I used to call upon clients to get their money arrangements for their accounts,
When I called this one guy ,he was the Manager of the person who I was trying to get hold off, and he sounded charming, adorable, everything a girl wants hear ,his name was Kevin, he had a great job, and when he sent me his photo , he looked fabulous as well,
So we started meeting each other and got to know each quite well, it was as if I loved him so much to an extent that I lied to my family , he wasn’t my religion, he was the opposition, and that just thrilled me,

We started bunking work and spending time together at the beach,
When my dad comes with news that there`s someone interested in me and that he is coming to see me, so I informed Kevin about it, and he said that he would come home and visit my family , and arrange for us to get married, so I was the happiest of all,

I told my dad about my relationship with Kevin, and he was utterly disgusted, he nearly have a heart attack,
What was I to do, I loved my parents but I also loved Kevin,
So with due time, my dad has accepted Kevin, and asked that he come to visit,

Since we stayed like oceans apart , so he had to stay at a hotel when he came down,
He came home, and although my parents didn’t like him, they accepted him to make me happy,
But my mum did tell me, that ` sweetie, u know we love u , and we want u to be happy, and if he makes u happy then we will accept him but we do not approve of him;’

And so with that confirmed , I was on top of the world , when Kevin`s parents called me to their house, and said that it wasn’t realistic that we lived far apart , how would we get to know each other.
So once again, my parents lowered their dignity ad sent me to their place , so that me and Kevin could get to know each other better,
Oh I was excited , just happy to be with the one I loved,

Little did I know that this would be the beginning of my nightmare.
Yeah at first he was loving, kind , caring, but then,

He would drink alcohol in public and pick a fight with me, sometimes he would even slap me in front of his parents.

Then his mum would pass rude hints that im so ugly, fat & what did her son see in me,
Every night that I was there, I would cry myself to sleep,
Who could I tell my problems, I have already put my parents through hell, I had no dignity to go back home,
So this treatment had continued for a long time, until one night , I remember it as though it was yesterday ,
We went out for a movie and dinner , and then we stopped at a bar for drinks, and he had , had more than enough , when he started a fight with his cousins who accompanied us, and while fighting I was hit with a leather chair on my head ,and had to go to hospital,

Because I was getting the rough end from both ends, my lover and his parents , I went to visit my brother who lived there as well,
I blurted out everything, what I have endured in his home, in front of him, and that made him so angry , that we fought so badly that night that I thought it would be over,

Anyway the next day I went to work and he went on his way. Fighting every second that we were together,

That day I just felt ill, and miserable, I could call home and tell my mum , that I have made a mistake and please forgive me,

But when I went to Kevin`s home that night, I have just sat for dinner, when he slaps me, and tells me to get out of his house,
Next moment , his mum, his sister and his dad, were throwing my stuff out on the roads,
It was 10pm, who would help me, I pleaded to him, `please babe don’t do this to me, I would change for u , I love u `
But he never listened to a word that I told him,, he just pushed me around,
He called my parents and told them to come and fetch me, as its OVER,
How could my parents come, as it would take them two days to get to me,

I called my work collegues to please help me, but nobody wanted to help me, they said `we don’t want to get involved`

The last resort was my brother , he came and fetched me at 1am in the morning, as I sat there on the roadside, with no money, nowhere to go,

When my brother came, he was furious , he called me a slut, tramp,
That night when I reached his house, his wife had also told me a lot of things ,
I just wanted to end it ,
I hated myself,
I took out a bottle of painkillers, and I had almost the entire bottle, when my brother came in, and saw that I was semi-unconscious, he rushed me to the hospital ,

I just wanted to die,

And then when I regained conscious , I was very ashamed,
I apologized to my family , and most of all my mum,
All my mum said that she was the happiest of all, that it ended, as she didn’t want to see me in hell for the rest of my life,

Therafter I stayed at my brothers house for 5 months, as I had a good job, and a career along the way , so they gave me refuge for that time,
In which every night my sister-in-law would comfort me
But they took care of me, which im forever greatful, as they helped me in my time of need ,

Then in due time, I got an apartment,and started my small life …. Not hearing anything from Kevin, made me sad , but at the same time strong and happy knowing that I didn’t ruin my life with him .

During that time, my dad had met an accident and he had broken his hand, and my mum being semi-blind , never worked in her life, so I asked them to move in with me, whereby I would take care of them.

And so they did, it was great having them with me, they loved me, and I love them,
We all would go out together , have fun together,and we were once again, our happy family ,

3 years has passed and I haven’t had a relationship. I was too scared , and I didn’t want to get hurt again,

And then one night as I was playing with my cellphone, I thought to myself , that I need to get out, meet people, fall in love, ( it wasn’t so bad since my mum started giving me courage to meet guys again)

I registered in a dating programme,
And this guy had seen my profile, and sent me an sms,
I started to reply to him and we started chatting , he was the most caring, wonderful guy u could ever get ,
And the best part was he not once was forward with me, or rude, ..
And this went on for 6 months
I had told him everything about me, and he has accepted me for who I am,
I could tell him anything and everything, he never judged people or myself, he was always there when I needed him
I give my life for him, as he showed me what true love is
Then this time I told my parents about him , and they were happy as he was my same religion .
I decided to meet him first so we all went to a theme park, my parents and I ,
And I asked him to come there and meet me,
He came and he was the most wonderful i ever met ,
And he didn’t want to hide from my parents, he went up to them, greeted them and asked if he could date me,
And then within three months he proposed to me, he brought he mum and sisters home to meet me, and they were all so happy , including my parents, but I was afraid that he would ask my parents to move out, but all he said wazs: ` babe they my parents as well, they can live with us forever`

6 months later , we got engaged,
Thereafter we got married, and up till today , he is caring, loving, romantic, handsome guy that I finally fell in love with, he doesn’t even raise his voice let alone his hands on me,
All I can see in his eyes is love for me, and I LOVE HIM UNCONDITIONALLY

Im happy now with the man of my dreams, he was there even though I could not see it,

Yeah marriages has its ups and downs, but communication is everything, and he is my everything

And when they marriages are made in heaven , it sure does.

2010-02-24T17:10:00.001+08:00

I want do nail art today,can??!!

2010-02-23T16:07:00.003+08:00

It's better not to know.

The only reason human beings fall in love is because of God.

He created this feeling called sympathy.

Do know that chances of people falling in love is because of sympathy?

Uh huh.

Gaining sympathy from others is easy.What makes it difficult is when the sympathy is gone.

I've yet to deprive you from attention.

Cause i think you still deserve the best.

you know something about secrets?they sucks like how getting fingered feels.

2010-02-22T09:45:00.002+08:00

Old Changi Hospital Nightmare.

All my life,i've never encountered such things nor believed in supernatural stuffs.But on this fateful day,i encountered something i've never felt before.Eerie i should say.

We're with my Baby's group of guy friends going riding on Friday night.Or should i say morning.About 6 bikes in total.We wanted to explore OCH and other eerie places that morning but after what heppened to me,they cancelled the plan.

You know,there's this hill up to OCH entrance?yeah,that one.I was tugging on Baby's shirt all the time as i felt something was wrong up there.All of a sudden,there's this windy feeling on my neck.It was strange as there wasn't any sign of wind before this.Aku punye pandai,i turn back lor.Old people always say,"No matter what happens,jangan pandang belakang."So yeah,i did.

and guess what,i was strangled.Literally strangled.

the force was quite strong as i couldn't breathe.Believe it or not,one of the bikes,the engine died.

supernatural or not,up to u guys to believe.But that's the first and last time i'm going up that hill.Till today,i still feel something strange is ard me.Like someone's looking..But yeah,let it be..Someday it will go..

So guys,no more ghost hunting.=)

2010-02-17T16:26:00.003+08:00

For a very long time,my parents have been the one constantly nagging at me, telling me how important education was.I refused to listen to them and thought that i was old enough to make my own decisions.I ran away from reality and lived in my own fantasy world.I fell in love with the best boy i've ever loved even though it hurts at times and still think my parents words are crap.Everything changed when i started work last year..

I merely thought to myself," Who am i working for?Who do i need to feed?I can't be working for myself?What have i got to pay off?"

I promised myself then that i have to prove to my parents that i left ITE for a very good reason.I have to work everything out on my own.Show them that even though i can't study,atleast i can do my part to support the family.

Earning money wasn't easy.My first pay was generous.But when it comes to 2nd pay,i barely had enough to spend.Most of my salary was pushed for my wedding.I was struggling to shop.I didn't have a choice.I want to live legally with the man of my choice so i have to sacrifice;including my mum.

She set aside her pay every month for the past 6 months to sponsor my catering costs.She tried every means and ways to work OT to earn extra.There was a time when she went back to work after the counselling session on a saturday and i was out gugu gagaing with my friends.She didn't even complained a single alphabet even though she had none to shop.She didn't buy new clothes,bags,makeup.She spent whatever she has.She never uttered a word of regret.Never.

But i did.

You tell me,where can i find such a good mother?Where on earth can i get the same replica?all that she's done for me.Everything.She's a fantabulous mum.

Right now,it's 4.37pm. 2 hours since her operation.I've not eaten enything since morning cause i wanna feel part of her pain.

Mummy,I want to tell the WHOLE WORLD how lucky i am to have you.I vow to take care of you and daddy till your last breath.I will always pray for you both.Mum,be strong.I know you are.Love you forever mummy..

2010-02-17T13:50:00.002+08:00

Didn't i tell you that there was this point of time when my heart suddenly feels that no one in this world needs me?

When everything seems so impossible.

I need a hug right now.

A huge comforting hug.

I miss you mum.

2010-02-17T10:16:00.006+08:00

Now i realise that all my keepsakes are baldies.haha.

And HubbyBaby used to be bald too!hehe..

2010-02-16T21:14:00.004+08:00

Sheesaing with "8"
Last day of counselling was on last Sat.It was kinda sad because end of counselling means no more Saturday outings with them.Haiz.Miss those people.
And so we decided to make full use of our last Sat together.Beach rd was our first stop followed by Arab Street and to Zain Cafe.

2010-02-12T13:52:00.003+08:00

Happy 13rd tEen Birthday!

You know something?

all those teeny weeny quarrels we had at home,lip bitting comments we gave and hair tugging experiences we gave each other,will all be memories in my heart.

Soon,i'll be gone dear sister.

I'll be taken and tuck in some corner by my husband.

I'm gonna miss those nights i slept beside you.

When i quarrel with Abg Yan,you kept quite but yet i know you heard em all.

Love life is hurtful yet joyful.

Adik,i hope you know what you want for your future.

I want the best for you.

You know i love you right?

so muchhsss.

2010-02-11T15:20:00.002+08:00

All i need is a .

I've tried means and ways to make or relationship better,but somehow i'm working on it alone.

There are times when i feel like breaking down so hard and let it all out.

What's in my inner me,nobody knows;including you.

I have done all i could to be a better gf but ask yourself if you did anything.

I'm not pin-pointing or shoving dusts at you.

I'm just telling you how hard i've been working on us.

At some point of time,getting married is the best way.But not all times.

Have you ever tried asking me how i feel when i'm neglected?

Tell you the bare truth:It hurts.Painfully hurts.

All i'm asking for is all your time for me and all my time for you.

Is it so hard that you can't comply?

I've relied on you for many things and i don't wish to undo it.

I'm begging you.Please,listen to me.

2010-02-11T11:02:00.002+08:00

Everyday i ask myself..

Why must i live to torture my feelings?

Why must i live at the expense of other's happiness?

For the past years,I've never known what it feels like not to be hurt.

It's always the pincing pain that i felt..

should i beg you not to deliver the unnecessary givings?

True what others have always been saying but i refused to listen.

"Don't try to put yourself in others shoes cause not all fits."

if you're reading this,thank god.Please understand my feelings..

2010-02-10T17:10:00.002+08:00

I've been longing to have kids.

Everytime i see kids,there's this sudden urge in me that i just want to start a family.

I want a baby.

The clock is ticking for me to get married and also

to have a healthy baby.

I hope it will make my relationship with Hubbybaby better in future.

2010-02-10T09:25:00.002+08:00

Sister's 13th Birthday!

Happy Birthday To You!

Happy Birthday to Filzah!

Happy Birthday To You!

And that was exactly what the Seoul Gardeners sang on Sunday when we celebrated her birthday.With the Chocolate Fudge PrimaDeli cake i bought,the whole cohort of them came over and sang it.My sis was shocked and grinning all the way despite shaking with paisehness.Haha..

Something pissed me off on that day.My aunt who refused to eat the buffet with us.She said that half cooked food wasn't her taste.I was like WTF??!Don't u know that grilled food are COOKED?the worst thing:She's a chemistry teacher.grr..

I didn't get her a birthday gift as i don't even know what to buy for her.Maybe sometime this month i'll get something.Anyway,the cake was a present from me!=)

bIRTHDAY GIRL.

handsome kan adik aku?

sisters.

my parents

my busu and nenek

baby and hady.always nak melekat je dgn laki aku..

nazmi.

harith irfan.he's really talkative okay!

birthday cake.

2010-02-05T16:05:00.002+08:00

Am I ready to accept another person in my life forever?

Am i ready to share my bed with someone new?

I've always had the quilt,bolster and pillow to myself.

Am I ready to share my life with someone called Husband?

I'm sure I am.

And I think I can.

Husband,can you?

2010-02-04T09:47:00.002+08:00

Dear love,

I know these few days has been terrible for us.Everyday we will have something to bicker about.Eversince the weekends.Org keje pun ade off day tau.But us,its difficult.hehe

I've learnt something throughout these few days.The thing that you never once said.I'm totally amazed by how you handle your emotions.Memang la kite tgh gado,but somehow you're always cool about things.

And that's what i like about you.

Sayang,I want to apologize for being such a bitch.I marah u tak tentu pasal.I tengking you.And maki2 you.I'm sorry sayang.

Looking forward to see you today.Love you so much!

2010-02-03T08:56:00.001+08:00

The Giving Tree

Once there was a tree……
And she loved little boy.
And every day the boywould come And he would gather her leaves And make them into crowns and play king of the forest.
He would climb up her trunk And swing from her branches And when he was tired,he would sleep in her shade.
And the boy loved the tree…..Very much..And the tree was happy.
But time went by, And the boy grew older. And the tree was often alone. Then one day the boy came to the tree and the tree said:

–”Come, Boy, come and climb up my trunk and swing from my branches and eat apples and play in my shade and be “happy”

–“I am too big to climb and play”said the boy. “I want to buy thing and have fun. I want some money. Can you give me some money?”

–”I’m sorry” said the tree,”but I have no money. I have only leaves and apples. Take my apples, Boy, and sell them in city. Then you will have money and you’ll be happy”

And so the boy climb up the tree and gathered her apples and carried them away. And the tree was happy..

But the boy stayed away for a long time…… and the tree was sad.
And then one day the boy came back and the tree shook with joy, and she said:

–”Come, Boy come and climb up my trunk and swing from my branches and eat apples and play in my shade and be “happy”..

–“I am too busy to climb trees,” said the boy. “I want a house to keep me warm,” he said. “I and want a wife and I want children, and so I need a house. Can you give me a house?”

–“I have no house” said the tree.The forest is my house.” said the tree “but you may cut off my branches and build a house. Then you will be happy”

And so the boy cut off her branches and carried them away to build a house. And the tree was happy.
But the boy stayed away for a long time……and the tree was sad. And when he came back, the tree was so happy she could hardly speak.

–“Come, Boy” she whispered, “Come and play”
–“I am too old and sad to play.”said the boy. “I want a boat that will take me away from here. Can you give me a boat ?”

–“Cut down my trunk and make a boat,” said the tree. “Then you can sail away…… and be happy.”

And so the boy cut down her trunk And made a boat and sailed away.

And the tree was happy…..But not really.
And after a long time the boy came back again.

–“I am sorry, Boy,”said the tree, “but I have nothing left to give you— My apples are gone.”

–“My teeth are too weak for apple,”said the boy.

–“My branches are gone,” said the tree.”You cannot swing on them—”

–”I am too old to swing on branches” said the boy.

–“My trunk is gone,” said the tree.“You cannot climb—-”

–”I am too tired to climb,” said the boy.

–“I am sorry” sighed the tree. “I wish that I could give you something… but I have nothing left. I am just an old stump. I am sorry…”

–”I don’t need very much now” said the boy. “just a quiet place to sit and rest. I am very tired”

–“Well” said the tree, straightening herself up as much as she could, “well, an old stump is good for sitting and resting. Come, Boy, sit down…and rest.”

And the tree was happy..

2010-02-02T09:33:00.003+08:00

"8"

From left:

Couple A: Ina & Shahrul

Couple B: Yan & Ain

Couple C: Ayu & Zack

Couple D: Su & Anis

The Story of Us "8"

We first met during our first day of Marriage Counselling at AMP.

Somehow we had to decide a name for our Discussion Group.

So,if i'm not wrong,it's Anis who came up with this name.

It was lame la.haha.But then again,it's what we are now.

Our Stories..

Couple A, ina & shahrul, is expecting their first baby.Ina's heavily pregnant with a baby girl.Somehow,she and her mum dreamt that's its a boy.haha.We'll just wait and see la when she delivers next month!

Couple B,which is me and hubbybaby,is getting married early april this year.Expecting no baby yet,but planning soon!

Couple C, Ayu & Zack, will be tying the knot this November.After going throught so many obstacles in life,Zack has finally found the love of his life.Ayu,ur fortunate!hehe

Couple D, Su & Anis.So the lovely lah.They look so perfect together.Plans to get married not yet but hopefully soon okay??

Our Weekly meetups..

As you know,we'll meet each other every saturday till 13 Feb,which will GLADFULLY be our last day of counselling.We always have so many things to gossip about.Sampai kul 3 pat ECP siol!haha...

Couple A with their honda civic,and the rest with powerful bikes!macam convoy pulak..

But anyway,everytime we hang out with them,i'll be laughing my heads off!Esp their jokes,teka-tekis and Magic of course!sampai aku peng siol tak dapat tangkap itu magic!haha..

So,to all my lovelies up here,I'm so gonna miss you people when Saturdays ends!

Continue the meetup okayy??

But no more MAGIC pls??haha!

Love ya!

2010-01-29T08:48:00.002+08:00

Sometimes in love you must accept the fact that what makes the person you cared about happy might on the other hand leave you so lonely.

2010-01-27T10:14:00.002+08:00

I had a great time with yanty last night after work.

We got ourselves a top each and dine in at McD.

What else can girls do to flunk guys out of their mind?

Shopping and gossips.Yeah.

2010-01-26T13:36:00.001+08:00

The Kind Of Love

Boy: Baby, we need to talk.

Girl: Ricardo, what do u mean?

Boy: Something has come up...

Girl: What? What's wrong? Is it bad?

Boy: I don't want to hurt you, baby.

Girl: *Thinks* Oh my God, I hope he doesnt break up with me... I love him so much.

Boy: Baby, are you there??

Girl: Yeah, I'm here. What is so important??

Boy: I'm not sure if I should say it..

Girl: Well, you already brought it up, so please just tell me.

Boy: I'm leaving...

Girl: Baby, what are u talking about?? I don't want you to leave me, I love you.

Boy: Not like that, I mean I'm moving far away.

Girl: Why? All of your famliy lives over here.

Boy: Well, my father is sending me away to a boarding school far away.

Girl: I can't believe this.

[FATHER: (Picks up the other phone, interrupts & yells furiously
ERICA!, what did I tell you about talking to boys?!!!... Get off the
damn phone!! (And hangs up).]

Boy: Wow, your father sounds really mad.

Girl: You know how he gets, but anyways, I dont want you to go.

Boy: Would you run away with me?

Girl: Baby, you know I would, I would do anything for you, but I can't... You don't know what would happen if I did. My dad would kill me!

Boy: *Sad* It's okay.. I understand, I guess..

Girl: *Thinking*I can't believe what's going on.

Boy: I need to give you something tonite, because I am leaving on
flight 1-80 in the morning, so I need to see you now.

Girl: Okay, I will sneak out & meet you at the park.

Boy: Okay, I'll meet you there in 20 minutes.

[They meet at a nearby park, they both hug eachother. And he gives
her a note.]

Boy: Here you go, this is for you. I gotta go.

Girl: *Tear* (Begins to cry.)

Boy: Baby, dont cry, you know I love you... But I have to go.

Girl: Okay (Begins to walk away.)

[They both go back home. And Erica begins to read the letter he gave her]
It says...

"Erica,

You probably already know that I'm leaving, I knew this would be better if I wrote a letter explaining the truth about how much I care about you. The truth is, is that I never loved you, I hated you so much, you are my bitch and dont you ever forget that. I never cared about you, and never wanted to talk to you, and be around you. You really have no clue how much I hate you. Now that I'm leaving I thought you should know that I hate you, bitch. You never did the
right thing, and you were never there. I didnt think I could hate someone as much as I hate you. And I never want to see you, for the rest of my life, I will never miss kissing you like before, I never want to cuddle up, how we used to. I will not miss you and that's a promise. You never had my love, and I want you to remember that. Bitch, you keep this letter because this may be the last thing you have from me. Fuck, I hate you so much. I will not talk to you soon bitch... Goodbye.
- Ricardo"

[ Erica begins to cry, she throws the paper in tha garbage & crys for hours ]

... A day passes, she is sad, depressed and she feels so lonely... Then she gets a phone call....

Friend: How are you feeling?

Girl: I just cant believe this happened.. I thought he loved me.

Friend: Oh, about that. Ricardo left me a message. A few days ago. He told me to tell you to look in your jacket pocket or something...

Girl: Umm.. okay.

[She finds a piece of paper in the jacket,

It says:
"Baby I hope you find this before you read my letter. I knew your dad might read it, so I switched a few words...
Hate = Love
Never = Always
Bitch = Baby
Will not= will
.... I hope you didn't take that seriously because I love you with all my heart, and it was so hard to let you go thats why I wanted you to run away with me... -Ricardo"]
Girl: Oh my God! It's a letter.. Ricardo does love me!!, he must of slipped it into my pocket when he hugged me. I can't believe how stupid I am!!

Friend: lol Okay but I g2g... Call me later.

Girl: *happy*okay, bye, I'll be at home waiting for my baby to call me!
... Erica turns the T.V. on......

[Breaking news] "An airplane has crashed. Over 47 young boys died, we are still searching for survivors... This is a tragedy we will never forget, this plane was flight 1-80... it was on its way to an all boys boarding school..." the Reporter says.

[ She turns off the t.v. ... 3 days later, she kills herself, because of the fact that Ricardo was dead & she had nothing to live for... ]

... A day after that the phone rings.

Nobody answers. It was Ricardo, he called to leave a message.

"Its Ricardo, I guess you're not home so, I called to let you know that I'm alive, I missed my flight because I had to see you one last time. So, I hope your not worried. I am staying for good.

2010-01-25T16:03:00.002+08:00

Exhilarating Weekend.

Firstly,i wanna say sorry to those pairs for leaving you guys that afternoon!yan and i was super excited about the chalet that we forgotten about u guys.SORRY!okay,i'm planning for an outing for us after the whole counselling thingy..okay peeps and mum-to-be?

Secondly,rocking chalet last weekend.Super fun.With the gorgeous yasmin baby and of course her lucky parents.Not to forget Yan's wonderful friends.Except bloody shrek.hehs.

With the BBQ's and all,the chalet was great.Holding another one in mArch.Hubby's and chikong bdae.=)

Thirdly,Thanks a lot parents for giving me the trust and freedom.And thanks for making me worried at what magnitude of earthquake i would get when i get home.hehe.Love u both loads lah!

Lastly,okay.Payday is here.The cash is here and so here comes the hutang!haha.I got loads to pay off.Takpe,75 days more and I"M YOURS BABY!

2010-01-21T16:23:00.001+08:00

THE LAST THING I EVER WANTED TO SAY.

2010-01-21T09:54:00.002+08:00

When Coffee Fills Our Minds..

macam-macam bende giler bole buat.

Is this how couples getting married shld act?

Tsk2.

2010-01-21T08:52:00.002+08:00

I'm entering marriage life in 80 days time.

So much to do,so much to worry about.

Once the ceremony is over,its honeymoon time!

A few places i have in mind.

The only thing is: Cash.

hmm..

I want Disneyland can?

2010-01-19T10:54:00.003+08:00

I may not be one of the possible things you want in your life
but i can promise you that i will give my very best for you.
You know I love you.

2010-01-14T13:32:00.000+08:00

One fine day, an old couple around the age of 70, walks into a lawyer's office.
Apparently, they are there to file a divorce.

Lawyer was very puzzled, after having a chat with them, he got their story....
This couple had been quarreling all their 40 over yrs of marriage nothing ever seems to go right.

They hang on because of their children, afraid that it might affect their up-bringing. Now, all their children have already grown up, have their own family, there's nothing else the old couple have to worry about, all they wanted is to lead their own life free from all these years of unhappiness from their marriage, so both agree on a divorce....

Lawyer was having a hard time trying to get the papers done, because he felt that after 40 yrs of marriage at the age of 70, he couldnt understand why the old couple would still want a divorce..

While they were signing the papers, the wife told the husband..
"I really love u, but i really cant carry on anymore, I'm sorry.."
"Its o.k, i understand.." said the husband. Lookin at this, the lawyer suggested a dinner together, just 3 of them,wife thought, why not, since they are still gonna be friends..

At the dining table, there was a silence of awkardness.
The first dish was roasted chicken, immediately, the old man took the drumstick for the old lady.."take this, its your favourite.."

Looking at this, the lawyer thought maybe theres still a chance, but the wife was frowning when she answer.."
This is always the problem, you always think so highly of yourself, never thought about how I feel, dont you know that i hate drumsticks?"

Little did she know that, over the years, the husband have been trying all ways to please her, little did she know that drumsticks was the husband's favourite. Little did he know that she never thought he understand her at all, little did he know that she hates drummsticks even though all he wants is the best for her.

That night, both of them couldnt sleep, toss and turn, toss and turn...after hours, the old man couldnt take it anymore, he knows that he still loves her, and he cant carry on life without her, he wants her back, he wants to tell her, he is sorry, he wanted to tell her "i love you"...

He picks up the phone, starting dialing her number....ringing never stops..he never stop dialing....

On the other side, she was sad, she couldn’t understand how come after all these years, he still doesnt understand her at all, she loves him a lot, but she just cant take it anymore....phone's ringing, she refuses to answer knowing that its him..."whats the point of talking now that its over...i have ask for it and now i wanna keep it this way, if not i will lose face.."she thought...still ringing...she have decided to pull out the cord...

Little did she remember, he have heart problems...

The next day, she received news that he had passed away...she rushed down to his apartment, saw his body, lying on the couch still holding on to the phone...he had a heart attack when he was still trying to get through her phone line....

As sad as she could be...she will have to clear his belongings...when she was looking thru the drawers, she saw this insurance policy, dated from the day they got married, with the beneficiary being her... And together in those file, there was this note...

"To my dearest wife, by the time you're reading this, I'm sure I'm no longer around, I bought this policy for you, though the amount is only $100k, I hope it will be able to help me continue my promise that i have made when we got married, I might not be around anymore, I want this amount of money to continue taking care of you, just like the way I will if I could have live longer. I want you to know Iwill always be around, by your side... I love you"

Tears flowed like river......

"When you love someone, let them know... You never know what will happen the next minute.... Learn to build a life together.. Learn to love each other. For who they are.. not what they are..."

2010-01-14T11:38:00.001+08:00

(A girl and guy were speeding over 100 mph on a motorcycle)
Girl: Slow
down. Im scared.
Guy: No this is fun.
Girl: No its not. Please, its to scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
(Girl hugs him)
Guy: Can u take my helmet off and put it on? Its bugging me.

In the paper the next day: A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of break failure. Two people were on the motorcycle, but only one survived.
The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his breaks broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him, felt her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so she would live even though it meant he would die.

2010-01-13T21:29:00.001+08:00

Get Well Soon LoverBoy.

2010-01-08T17:11:00.001+08:00

off to meet HubbyBaby!

fitting today!

When Words Don't Work.

2010-01-08T11:16:00.003+08:00

2010-01-07T09:01:00.002+08:00

Last night was super fun.

HubbyBaby fetched me from work and we head off to cck park to get his long time craving.

Seafood Soup Tang Hoon!

It was raining quite heavily and so we lepak2 under my block first before proceeding.

The fried rice with chicken was superlicious but still can't beat Aspirasi Chicken rice!hehe

My dad was ringing me,confirm asking me to go home.

But what the hell!!it was only 7pm.grr.

after that,we went to NTUC and bought ice cream,murukku and vanilla rolls.

tak sabar2 nak makan ice cream.Bawah blk jugak kite sapedek!

S a y a n g B a n g e t s a m a k a m u!!

A little bit of humour :)

2010-01-06T12:57:00.001+08:00

For you HubbyBaby.I love u!

BIG NIGHT OUT GIG 2010! (Saosin, Muse & Rise Against)

2010-01-06T01:23:00.003+08:00

Britain's most adventurous rock band MUSE make their triumphant return to Southeast Asia to headline BIG NIGHT OUT 2010 on February 3rd at The Singapore Indoor Stadium!

It was January 16th, 2007 when they last played in Singapore, a memorable sold out night at Fort Canning Park! That same year the trio held two super-massive sold out gigs at Wembley Stadium. After disappearing for almost two years to dream up The Resistance, they re-emerged in September 2009 with two hometown gigs in Teignmouth, Devon in front of 10,000 people. Their show was part old school circus, part futuristic fluorescent extravaganza.

MUSE have sold over 8 million albums worldwide, sold out two nights at Wembley Stadium in London and have received 5 MTV Europe Music Awards, 4 Q Awards, 7 NME Awards and 2 Brit Awards.
MUSE’s fifth album, "The Resistance" was an instant worldwide No.1 in 19 countries.

“The Best Act in The World Today!” - 2009 Q Awards
“Experiencing MUSE in all their glory is akin to contact with higher life forms.” - The Vine, September 2009

Supporting MUSE on BNO 2010 are straight edge Chicago rockers Rise Against and one of the fastest growing bands in rock, Southern California quintet Saosin.

DATE
3 Feb 2010 Wed, 7.00pm

Doors open at 5pm

VENUE(S)
Singapore Indoor Stadium

TICKET PRICE (Exclude Booking Fee)
Standard - S$168, S$148, S$128, S$98

Free Standing - S$168 (PEN A)
Free Standing - S$128 (PEN B)
Free Standing, for patron 12 yrs & above only

Please add to above price $3 Booking Fee per ticket for tickets above $20 and $1 Booking Fee per ticket for tickets $20 and below. Charges include GST where applicable.

ADMISSION RULES
No admission for infant in arms and child aged below 7 years old. Child 7 years old and above must purchase ticket for admission.

* No Photography, Video recording and Audio recording is allowed for this event!

PARAMORE Live In Singapore

2010-01-06T00:59:00.003+08:00

It’s a rumour no more. paramore, the explosive American band are set to play their first ever concert in Singapore on 7 March 2010, at the Indoor Stadium.

Formed in 2004, in Franklin, Tennessee, paramore are Hayley Williams, Josh Farro, Zac Farro, Jeremy Davis and Taylor York.

With over 4 million albums sold worldwide, their rise began with All We Know is Falling (2005) and Riot! (2007), propelling the band to global success. The band is now touring in support of their latest album, 2009’s brand new eyes, arguably their best collaboration to date. paramore are also known for the track Decode from the movie Twilight.

A band with an incendiary live show, they have proven they are able to juxtapose their indie-minded influences that both embrace the future without abandoning the past.

Never to rest on their laurels, paramore continue to look forward to their future excited by what might be in store for the group.

paramore are ready to blow your mind! Are you? Get your paramore tickets today and get ready to Riot!

DATE
7 Mar 2010
Sun, 08:00PM

DURATION
Approx 1 hr 30 mins

VENUE(S)
Singapore Indoor Stadium

TICKET PRICE (Exclude Booking Fee)
Standard - S$108, S$88, S$68

Please add to above price $3 Booking Fee per ticket for tickets above $20 and $1 Booking Fee per ticket for tickets $20 and below. Charges include GST where applicable.

ADMISSION RULES
No admission for infant in arms and child aged below 6 years old. Child 6 years old and above must purchase ticket for admission.

Age Restrictions
Seated Area (Arena, Terrace & Balcony seats) – 6 years old and above.
Standing Pen – 12 years old and above

* No Photography, Video recording and Audio recording is allowed for this event.

Members of the audience shall not be allowed to videotape or photograph any part of the performance hereunder other than with a personal cell phone device. If a member of the audience is found in violation of this provision, Producer/Artist reserves the right to demand that Purchaser deliver any recorded media to Producer/Artist and remove such audience member from the venue.

CLICK HERE purchase your tickets now!

2010-01-05T11:47:00.002+08:00

Daily Do's

Share with you my daily do's..Just feel like it.

It goes like this..

woke up at 6am.I snoozed myself till 6.15 at times.

shower till 6.25.

last min of wardrobe scavenging plus ironing till 6.35

makeup till 6.45

clothes on plus last min thrashing things into bag till 6.55

hunt the kitchen for brkfast.

dash out of the house at 7.03.

wait patiently for the bus 300.(i hate chasing buses so i don't give a hoot if it just passes me by.)

reached int at 7.10.sometimes 7.15

if there's time,go to the makcik stall and buy lunch.

transport here at 7.20,7.25

reached work at 7.45

brkfast with yanty till 8.10

get ready for the company chime at 8.15

assembly on Mondays.Other days just on the computer and sit at my desk.

go for frequent toilet breaks if there aren't any work.

read books.newpaper.news online.surf the net.face booking.blogging.blog hopping till 12pm.

Lunch till 12.45.

Open letters at 1.30.

if there's any couriers,chop & sign..

dreeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaammmmmmm.

chit chat with Hubbybaby.

till...............................

5.30.

off all lights.

5.35 signout.

H O M E.

can't you see how bored my life is??tsk.tsk.

I think i have the best job in the world.

A non-managerial one of course.

2010-01-04T14:58:00.004+08:00

There is this something that i feel like posting and letting others read.It might be personal but i just feel that it's good to let this heartfelt warmness feeling out.

For the past few days,my love and I have been mingling with kids.Infants to be exact.The first day i brought him to see my nephews last 2 years, i pondered to myself.

"Will he like kids?What if he gets irritated by them?Is it the right choice?"

However,my thoughts weren't right.

He loved kids.

Whenever i see him smiling to kids,i feel overwhelmed.I don't know why but i just felt it.The way he entertained to their tantrums.The way he hugged them.The way he kissed them.It's like the love of a father to his child.Urm,maybe not yet but soon..hehe.

I feel so glad he felt that way with kids.He's so patient when it comes to feeding them and chasing them around.Totally my kind of man.

Everytime Hubby comes to me when he smelt something unpleasant coming out of Hady's bum,i knew he wasn't prepared for diaper routine.But it's ok..haha..me too.

It's been 3 years living life as a daughter,sister,girlfriend and makcik.

Maybe now it's time to live life like a wife.

Perhaps,a mother.

To darling,I love you so.

2010-01-04T13:31:00.002+08:00

When I say Love matters..

The long weekend has been totally fun for me!
I spend lots of time with my family,cousins and HUbbybaby..
It was really well spent.

On new year's,I had no plans in my mind.Hubby and I didn't know where to go.
Cinemas?Full.
Shopping malls?Full.
Restaurant?Full.
Town?Even full.

Luckily,the night before i suggested something to all.
which was to crash over at my aunt plc at jurong.
our itinery was..
Lunch.
movie marathon.
karaoke.

and we have it all!
I don't have any pics on that day as i was too busily singing my hearts out..hehe.

On Sat,it was solely HUbby's and me day.
We did quarrel,unfatefully,on that day.
So,we met a lil later.hehe.
It was quite late in the aftnn so Hubby fetched me at Yishun.
We went to Town and chilled till nite.hehe

No pics again.I lazy la..

On Sun,outing with cousins,family and Hubby.
Super early at 8.30,my mum woke us up.
Okay,late planning,bowling.
Met Hubby later at 11.30 as he was still sleeping..(tula,mrayap je eh!)hehe..
okay,now there's loads of pics..

It was so peaceful when he slept.But when he woke up,Hubby had to entertain him and chased him all over CSC!grr!active betol budak ni!

Hady.

me and bro

me and sis

harith and hazami.my nephews.

Hubby got so into the machine that he can't get enough of it and changed 10 50 cent coins!

bro,mum,sis.

2010-01-02T12:33:00.002+08:00

Maybe I''m not on your wishlist but somehow you're accepting it.

2010-01-01T20:11:00.002+08:00

The New Year.

tired of hearing resolutions.To me,every year is something.Every year,there's bound to be good and bad times.Can't say 2009 has been a good year but hopefully 2010 would be fruitful.

I reckoned singapore roads were closed yesterday.The same thing happened during christmas.Nevertheless,i did manage to..

catch a movie.Old Dogs.
eat at Banquet(JP) which is always full of people
bank in cash at OCBC.
make my way to Cdans for a pre planned bowling session.
waited on the list for an hr
stopped by my plc to grab passports.
off we go to JB at 12am sharp.
circled JB for 1 1/2 hrs before settling at some roadside to eat.
gossip about beer controversies.
reached home at 4 am.
zzz at 4.30.

Who says fireworks completes a new year?

LOL(Lots Of Love)

2009-12-31T09:16:00.002+08:00

This boy up here?

He's the love of my life.

Been damn long with him to know all.

Okay,maybe not all.

Truthfully,he's the other light of my life.

Te amore.

and this is me up there.

taken after the highlights and treatment.

Love of his life?

haha..

see those makciks behind me?

they look so poor thing..Limping..

but know what Hubby tells me?

they gather they to gossip.

plus,bet on 4D.

Nabey ppl.

scrap ur religion for goodness sake.

oh ya,always be the limelight.

I got nothing to do and i captured this.

taken when i was in sec 2.

so chubby and irritating look i had.

and this is Hubby's.

he looks even slengeh lor!

haha..

seriously,his passport pic looks worst.

LJS ambassadors.

ok,this is super not necessary.

the new crocs i just bought.

uber cute!

Hubby says i look like some alien from "mars attack".

kurang ajars kan?

taken during the steamy treatment i had with Yanty last saturday.

mine turned out good,but yanty hate hers.

i think she looks good la..

while queueing up to enter the cine for alvin & the chips

bloody hilarious.

okay,i can't stop rocking in my chair..!

and the best thing was,i didn't fall asleep!!

More pics but my comp's slow..So,more pics next post okay?

and about the Lamb Of God gig,really should go.

To Hubby:I'm not faking abt listening to Lamb Of God okay!!hehe..

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2009-12-27T02:32:00.008+08:00

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2009-12-24T12:14:00.002+08:00

Oh,Hello!

Self-declared half day with dearest yanty.

Pizza Hut for Lunch.

Meeting HubbyBaby.

Happy Xmas!

Note To Love.

2009-12-23T13:36:00.001+08:00

Note To Love.

H A N G O V E R

2009-12-23T08:46:00.002+08:00

I need a long cold shower.

Oh God,please listen to me pray.

Just for this time.

I need you.

Back then.

2009-12-22T16:36:00.002+08:00

I just hope one day,my memory fails.

Forget everything,including the past.

cause it's the past that is haunting me.

Now.Maybe,forever.

Fuck that girl.Fuck that little boy.Fuck all.

MThfckr.

A Big Thank You.

2009-12-22T08:50:00.003+08:00

I think i've started to itch.

4 years ago,i've itched to get a boyfriend.

Now,I've got one.

After a year in a relationship,I want to get married.

Now,I'm going to get hitched.

The wedding date has been set,I am thinking of having a grand wedding.

Now,everyone is busily preparing for our wedding.

I want this,I want that,even though my budget is tight.

Now,I've got sponsors streaming in.

The wedding is not even over yet,

Now,i'm itch-ily selecting destinations for my honeymoon.

You SEE?How ngade-ngade(choosy) I am.

Want this la...want that la...

I want to say thanks to my sponsors & people that is part of our wedding.

Hubby's Aunty: Perfect BMW wedding car.

Uncle Rohan: Wedding cards.

My Mak Long: Wedding Favours.

My Grandma: A gift to us.

My Dad: Downpayment for our new furniture.

Ana: My bridesmaid.

Hubby's friends.

And to My Mom: For everything.You made things possible.

2009-12-21T12:42:00.003+08:00

This photo up here?It was during my family dinner outing to Lot1 last saturday.

I was too busily eating my Cream pasta at Delifrance that i had forgotten to snap pictures.

As usual,my bro would order chicken-related dish,my mum with her forever-diet sandwich,my dad with his steak and my sis with her beef bolognaise spaghetti.

and our outing always ended with tears-of joy.

Mum and dad planned to catch a movie after dinner but i resented.

I knew that i was a weakling for late night movies.

The cold,comfy atmosphere never fails to put me to sleep.

somehow,the action movie that i was watching would turn into a lullaby.

tsk.tsk.

So,without me around the next day(confirm i go out on a Sunday),my mum decided to go the next day.

HubbyBaby and i planned to overnight on that Sat and stay out till sunday.

But i got too tired and didn't manage to stay through the night.hehe.

Woke up the next day to meet hubbybaby..

Our first stop was at City Hall.Bright and early 10am,i was waiting there for him to reach.

Oh well,someone with a 400CC bike,how EARLY can he reach right?

So there i was,hugging my helmet with my earpiece stucked to my ears,waiting patiently for him.

Grr.

He came with that stupid grin on his face.Standard.

So, we went to ABM(a restaurant beside mustaffa) to eat!

I was famished and craved for Thosai (or Dhosai?)

Baby had Naan which looked like prata.

and i ordered Gulab Jamun!Nice!kan bi?muahaha!

We shopped at Mustaffa after that proceed to Town

Parked at al-falah.Paragon.Heeren.FarEast.

Then to Bugis.

For dinner to Seah Imm.

I was damn tired and hungry.

hehe.Ordered Chicken Rice and lychee.

Aft that,Jurong Point for grocery shopping and home.

while at Paragon.Ah mei kaya toast.

Baby bought this for me.hehe.I love it!

FYI,throughout the weekends,everything is "kindly" sponsored by HubbyBaby.

Which means,payback time after i get my pay!Boo HoO!

Heartfelt emotions.

2009-12-18T13:42:00.002+08:00

Para mi bebé,
usted es la mejor cosa en mi life.To quiero, a tu dueño, que soy tu everything.I «verdaderamente blessed.I nunca puede comprometer por else.I nada sólo quieren llevar una vida feliz, casado la vida con usted.

Te amo Muhammad Iryandi Bin Ismail.

(To my baby,

you are the best thing in my life.To love you,to own you,to be your everything.I'm truly blessed.I can never compromise you for anything else.I just want to lead a happy,married life with you. )

I Love you Muhammad Iryandi Bin Ismail.

2009-12-18T08:59:00.002+08:00

FAMILY.

Father,Mother I Love You.

Just how often do you hug your parents?

Tell them that you love them?

Promise them that you'll be a filial child?

Make them feel at ease?

Just how often you look away from them?

stare at them when they nag at you?

Bang the door and close your ears?

Pretend that you care for them?

Just how often you scream back at them?

Treat your house as a hotel?

Refuse to listen to them?

Begged them hard for money?

Just how often you pray for them?

Chip in a little of your salary for bills?

Do grocery shopping when they're not well?

Help out at home instead of going out?

Just how often you cook for them?

Take over all the household chores?

Listen to what their heart is saying?

Understand their position as parents?

Just how often you make your own decision?

Ask them for permissions before doing anything?

Think about them when you're doing bad things?

Spare a thought for them?

I never realise all this until the day my mum started keeping everything to herself.

Just how much i love her?

And today,since last night,she's somewhere out there.

somewhere i don't even know she's at.

Not even my dad.

Secret is the ultimate killer.

And i

HATE IT.

mummy,wherevr you are,i'll always pray that you're safe.and i love you more than anything i could ever think of.

Chapter Mid- Torturous.

2009-12-17T09:52:00.003+08:00

My mum once told me,"Don't give everything to a guy..You'll be at the losing end one day."

being any typical teenager,i refused to listen.I did everything i feel like doing and didn't care a hoot about whatever she says.

but right now,i'm feeling the heat.

Feeling the knock of regret and the slamming of guilt.

Draining every will power out of me.

Remorseful,regret.

Nothing can be undone.

Relationships can never be purely true nor clean.

The same goes for mine.

Like the saying goes "Still water runs deep".

To the love of my life,if you happen to read my blog,I am feeling the worst right now.

If drowning myself with painkillers helps,why not?

You're not the perfect thing that i want,so have you wondered why i still want to chuck aside my disagreements and marry you for the rest of my life?

Think twice.Think it all over.

None to blame.

2009-12-16T09:25:00.002+08:00

32 mths 7 days.

128 weeks 7 days.

3840 + 7 days.

92328 hours.

and many more minutes..

seconds..

current fav music: "happy" from leona lewis.

so what if it hurts me?

so what if i break down?

so what if this world just throws me off the edge

my feet run out off ground?

this song somehow helped me calm myself down.

throw everything off my shoulder

and give myself a chance to be myself.

trying to be happy.

weekends without cash

2009-12-14T14:02:00.007+08:00

the tongkat cacat.Baby's fav.muahaha!

me and my stupid "overexcited face".

Baby step maner nye pro je.okay2 still a pro.He won all 3 games.Nabey.

My fav shot.

It's the 2nd weekend without me forking out cash.

how good is that?hehe..

HubbyBaby's been paying for everything.

and i've clean sweep-ed my pay.

the wedding preps are making me drool.

cash flowing non-stop.

and my brain's always filled with dates for appts.

the worst part is yet to come.

okok.yesterday was fun.we had the whole day entirely to ourselves.

can't describe how much i totally missed him.

we went to town.had lunch at Bugis and dinner at al ameen.
no need to be so detailed ah.

*coughs*..hehe.

hopefully everything turns out great before,during and after the wedding.

looking forward to 10.04.2010.

haf a great(farking hot) day all!

another dream.or nightmare i suppose?

2009-12-12T11:06:00.002+08:00

isn't it great to be dreaming about work?
especially about your own boss?
having a relationship with you?
ya ryte!
i had this dream abt me having a relationship with my boss.
damn.mthfuckr.
i was swearing when i woke up this morning.
disgusting i must say.
i can't even imagine talking to him,much more having a SERIOUS relatnship with him.
Gawd.
he was hugging me and kissing me on the cheeks.
eww!
thnk gawd it was only a dream.
ok,rmbr to wash feet before zzz..
p.s:i havent told baby abt this dream coz i think it's disgusting and humiliating!!

Please Speak Proper English.

2009-12-11T10:21:00.002+08:00

i hate callers that request for a certain people and yet their eng is horrible.

i mean it,HORRIBLE.

pronouncing names is the main error.

i totally hate it when they can't pronounce the names clearly and i have to spend like 5 minutes on the phone doing listening compre with them.

not only that, i bloody hate callers that hung up on me when they're furious if they can't get hold of the person they are looking for.!!aaargh!

i never knew frontline could be so brain whacking.mthfckr.

p.s: i hate those "dark skinned" callers.their telo so the naikkn darah!

i'm racist,i know.tsk.tsk.

okay sidetrack a bit.

i've found my bridesmaid(hehe..)

my mum keep asking me why i needed one..

of course!im nervous!

getting married at this age?and infront of 1000 guests i have to smile?

of course i needed companion..hehe

and thanks a lot ana for agreeing to be one.

yeay yeay,gt gorgeous bridesmaid.=)

Nightmare.

2009-12-10T09:46:00.004+08:00

i had this horrible nightmare last night.

i dreamt i killed a malaysian old time actor and cut off his body.

the whole toilet was filled with blood and suddenly the doorbell rang.

i can't remember who,but i was panicked when i heard the doorbell.

i quickly spring cleaned the toilet and opened the door.

i couldn't remember how i discarded the body but somehow it was gone.

the 2nd part of the nightmare happened at my old block 406.

some of my friends and i were happily lepaking under the block when my friend shouted,

"Eh,tu mcm ade tuala putih je..".

then,another of my friend looked up and saw that "white lady".

all of us looked up in horror and started saying our prayers.

"jgn bace2..nanti dia makin datang.."One of my friends said.

which didn't make sense lah.haha

i was really terrified though.

i woke up at ard 4.45am with a vibrating sound coming from my phone.

Batt Low.

grr..

make me panic je..

i felt like peeing but couldn't bring myself to the toilet..heee..

so i slept through till the alarm went off at 6am.

ohya,another set of dreams.But this one better..

i dreamt i was on my bf's bike all the way from cck to p.ris..

i mean,i rode the bike.hehe.

and i was speeding all the way!

seems fun,but i can only afford to dream.haha.

09.04.07

2009-12-09T14:25:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 32ND MONTHSARY!

Dear Hubby,

Time passed so fast and it's already our 32nd mths together.Only left 120 days to our wedding day.I can't explain in words how elated i'm feeling.I can't wait to be your lawfully wedded wife and stay through with you till eternity.Baby,I know i can't give you everything.I know i'm not perfect.At times when we quarrel,i get so upset and afraid that our relationship will sour.I get so insecure whenever we quarrel and you hung up just like dat.Baby,i hate our history.I just want you to know that i've forgiven you and i hope to release a new chapter with you everyday.Let's just take one day at a time.I love you,everything about you.Muaks.

Yours only,

ain.

Weekends with you.

2009-12-09T13:02:00.002+08:00

Our busy work schedule has kept us away from each other during the weekdays.
in short,we only have the weekends to spare.
we had both weekends to ourselves.
How Lovely.

so,sunday wasn't planned actually.We thought of just having lunch and go for window shopping.But suddenly i remembered that they just screened Couples Retreat.Which had my fav actor in it,Vince Vaughn.Stopped over at PS,bought cream puff from Carrefour and waited for the movie to start at 1.45pm(instead of 1.35pm).I hated this thing about Golden Village Cinemas.They never start promptly.Grr.

After the movie,i wanted to go Marina Barrage but HubbyBaby said there isn't anything there.So we proceeded to the new shopping mall,313 Somerset and Orchard Central.

I'm so loving the scenery it has from the rooftop garden.Loving it so much that i was literally said,"wah!","wow!'',"cantiknye bi!","OMG!"..haha..and HubbyBaby was showing me that face like("urm,can you like shut up?"..)MTHFCKR.heh..

We biked off to CCK park as he wanted to eat.I had Hokkien Mee and he had Claypot Vermicelli.We shared Lychee and teman him smoke.He sent me home and i had to faced my parents for not coming back on Sat night.hehe..

and of course,i was shagged.

up the escalator.

Love u baby.

scenery from the garden terrace

my snapshot.hehe

HubbyBaby insisted on taking the super long escalator.and so,this idiotic girl decided that she should be in.heh..

He got cute pantat hor..

LOng Weekend.

2009-12-07T21:12:00.003+08:00

Friday:Dinner with the Beaus at Sakura Int Buffet.

Saturday: Night out with HubbyBaby
Sunday: To Town.
Monday:MC
Tuesday: MC

Lazy to upload pics.hehe..all are up in facebook!wee!
add me in facebook pls ppl!it's for my wedding invitees!thnks!
add me: aeinnyann

Bukan Cinta Biasa.

2009-12-07T21:11:00.002+08:00

Long Lost Hobby.

2009-12-04T09:47:00.006+08:00

Did i ever tell you i'm an avid kayak person?

I doubt so.

way back during my NPCC days,kayaking was my forte.Eversince i signed up for the kayaking course,i was amazed at what kayak can do to a person.

i was so in love with kayak that i never wanted to leave the kayak.

The course we had at Kallang River with the Twin Instructor and my fellow mates was superb.

But of course,i had my nightmare after the 2nd day.

I was Fucking allergic to GRASS.

Whaddafuck!?GRASS?out of all things, it had to be this greeny thingy!grr!i had no choice but to abandon the 2 star kayaking course i was taking.

Oh well,it didn't stop there of course.Somehow the allergy managed to fly away!I was back on healthy mode after a few months-Just nice for my 5 days Outward Bound School Camp.Guess what?i get to kayak again!

and this time,i REALLY get to kayak for super long distance!about 17km from the first campsite to the second campsite.Sure,on the map it was just a stone's throw away but hell no!It was a long and tiring journey.Plus,i was only a few feet away from this huge Vessel!Nightmare on elms st.(exaggerating mode).

Okay,so back to Kayak.There's a few requirements needed:

-you have to know how to swim atleast 50m.

-Always wear a life vest

-persons under the age of twelve need to wear a floatation devise while a vessel is underway

-master the art of paddle techniques.

-pink of health.

dats just a few that i can recap.There's not much required actually.But the most important thing is to learn the techniques well.Master the steps as to how to get back in your seat when the kayak overturn or when you capsize.

Signing up for more courses.I should get back my hobby on track.

betol cakap yanty,must slim down before kahwin!

LG captivates me.

2009-12-03T14:12:00.002+08:00

Hubby,i want one can???

My Fav Fridge.

2009-12-03T14:12:00.000+08:00

Bedroom Fantasy.

2009-12-03T12:45:00.014+08:00

Okay people,this entry is going to be loaded up with bedroom designs that i very much want for my new bedroom in 2 months time.Too bad that i only have 1 room to decorate so i can only choose 1 design!!grr!

The problem is HubbyBaby doesn't want Red,Pink,Purple or Green to be at any corner of the room.He definitely CROSSED out these colours.But hey,maybe he could change his mind after seeing all this.That is why his clever Wife-To-Be here posts up these designs!

I've also included some designs for kids bedroom..

who knows..hehe..

bloody red wardrobe!i want it so much!

My first choice.Lorve it!

Second choice.The bedsheet,cosy corner!Rocks!

Third choice.I love the authentic wooden furniture.

Fourth.Love it.Esp the wall colours.

Fifth.Suddenly green captures my attention.Wonder why.

Nice right??for my baby princess..hehe

this is so gorgeous!definitely my own choice of teenage bedroom.

farking cosy.grrr..!

Do you even farking care?

2009-12-02T13:32:00.002+08:00

You have done enough damage to my life than anyone else ever did.

So am i suppose to appreciate it or what?

The One.

2009-12-02T08:26:00.002+08:00

Never look back at any pasts you've created.It's meant to be forgotten.

Go On..Move On.

yesterday wasn't as smoothly as i had planned.

firstly,the catering company called to say that the meeptup was CANCELLED.

then they called again to say that the meetup CAN BE ARRANGED at 7pm.

and so,me,my mum and her friend took a cab from Jurong to Woodlands.

it was 6.20 and the traffic was horrible.

we were rushing for time.as we wouldn't want to miss the appt.

given that it's the crucial meetup,we want to arrive EARLY.

the office was at 15 Woodlands Loop.Mind you,it's those factories.

we reached at 6.55pm and the fare was $33.

Lost,we traced the directory.

Reached #04-35 and the place was bloody dark,narrow,stuffy and eyucks.

my mum's friend called the guy,Jack.

His assistant,Asmah,came and directed us to the office which fortunately had AIRCON installed.

Happily,we sat down and browse through the albums.

Impatiently,it was 7.45pm and Jack wasn't there yet.

My mum and her friend went down to get some drinks and break as i was fuckingly hungry.

Jack and Asmah came.

Discussed,paid and left.

Mind you,my mum was so paranoid all along as she had 5K CASH in her bag(not knowing that credit cards could be used).

We called a cab.Waited and headed home.

Exhausted.

Now,how the hell am i suppose to convince HubbyBaby that cameraman packages are expensive?Grr..

Baby,if you're reading this,please listen to me for one last time.

PLEASE DON'T SPLURGE FOR OUR WEDDING.

okay?remember,Hayabusa.heee..Focus,focus..

Barely 2 days.

2009-12-01T16:25:00.002+08:00

Barely 2 days and i'm already missing HubbyBaby.

How soon can weekends end?

They should extend hols to 2 days..Ryte.

Grr..

How i wish Pasir ris could be 5 mins away from Cck.

And i miss overnights with him.

and to my wedding caterer,if you ppl cancel the meetups again,sumpah i'm gonna CALL you direct.waste my bloody time.

Laughter.Peace.Joy.

2009-11-30T16:16:00.003+08:00

Delifrance with family: Eve of Hari Raya Haji

Total Cost: $66

My contribution: $16

Hari Raya Haji with my lovelies.

Venue: My Crib

Menu: Nasi Bawang,Dalca,Sambal Telur,Roti Boyan,Ayam masak merah,Rendang Daging,Sambal Goreng,Satay Goreng,Acar.

Dessert: My Sponsorship of $1 Ice-cream.Heehe.

Outz with HubbyBaby.

Nothing to declare.Hehz.

Allergy.

2009-11-26T17:25:00.001+08:00

Fuck Gastrics.

Fuck Milk.

Fuck Soya.

Fuck Cheese.

Fuck Horlicks.

Fuck You Lactose!

FATE.

2009-11-26T10:18:00.002+08:00

At this point,right now.

My limbs and senses are numbed.

I feel like stealing toilet rolls and..

CRY.

Just

CRY.

As much as i want to make myself busy,

my thoughts are filled with anger,hurt,pain.

Deeply,I'm hurt.

Insomnia.

2009-11-26T09:25:00.001+08:00

Breathless night.

Sleep-less morning.

Raging heart.

All i need is a hug and "I'm Sorry".

What Life Really Means After Marriage.

2009-11-25T14:48:00.002+08:00

Get the sequence?Let me tell you how i picture married life.

The Exchange of vows.Long awaited.

The Happiness that befalls married couples.

The Ultimate Sex Life.

The Gift From Above.

The Arguments.

It's coming to 4 months for my big day and i certainly have lots of questionings and thoughts in my mind.How exactly do i picture married life?

what happens after the arguments?

I've read lots of articles about couples breaking up long after they had their first baby.

mostly young couples,like me and HubbyBaby.

Is married life all about lust?

Or is it about life long commitment?

i'm still pondering.

Not that i have regrets in my decision to get hitched.

It's just that having thought about more severe things is better than nothing.

A lot more preparations.A lifelong commitment.